When I started this journey, I wasn't really sure why I was going. I just felt a huge pull to go and figured that things would just reveal themselves to me as I went along.
So, I've been on the trail now for close to two months. I've been through all the unfortunately necessary physical suffering of getting used to carrying a backpack, having blisters. feeling like I had the wrong gear, feeling like I couldn't this
And now what now what is becoming clear to me is that one of the greatest gifts is bringing me into very deep sense of quiet.
When I'm quiet, when my internal world is quiet I can allow things to come to me and i notice when they do. Those things are not necessarily big dramatic things.
They are really lovely things like the interactions that I've had with a whole array of gorgeous funny interesting people. Who just by virtue of being themselves and chatting to me about their lives have showed me all kinds of things.
For example, really feeling and appreciating what is different about New Zealand and New Zealanders. There is an unassuming gentleness about Kiwis. And a particular sense of humor that I've really missed.
Some people that I've been hiking with who've, given me like practical information gear tips. Trail tips, logistics tips. And also just the side conversations of hearing. What people are saying, what are they talking about? Why people are doing this Trail.
Maybe it's relationship breakups, or one guy who lost his wife to cancer unexpectedly. He's now trying to feel into how he's going to live his life without his best friend. Or one guy who is doing it for a charity fundraiser.
And because I'm feeling really quiet inside. I can really hear what people are saying, both through their words and in the way that they say, the words, And I'm finding that to be a really beautiful experience.
What this brings to me is is the realization that actually life is always like that. There are always people drifting in and out of your life. Dropping little gems as it were. And that the day-to-day life, it can be really hard to hear those things because it's so easy to get really busy, super distracted.
So we don't even see them, we don't even hear them.
And now out on the trail because my life is really simple. Within that simplicity, there's so much space for me to really drop into that quiet place and just allow things to come to me. I feel like people give me little bits of treasure.
So the greatest gift of me being here is learning what that feels like to live in that quiet still space.
And now I have learnt that I can take it back to my day-to-day life, and live differently when I come back.. And, I love that.
Now all the physical demands are pretty much out of the way I can just relax into that and so this allowing things to come to me and be quiet enough to receive them.
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